A year has passed, I guess it’s realI just can’t help the way I feel.
My heart is gone, my soul is lost
My mind stays stuck back in the past.
It’s just that I never thought we would have to bury
My baby brother , my life, my friend so caring.
You chose Veteran’s Day to take your life
A plan well thought out, your wish to die
I’ll never forget that horrible day
engraved in my heart forever it will stay
A Happy Veteran’s day it will NEVER be
for you took our veteran away from me
Nor will any other holiday ever be the same
All they do is bring up more pain
Why did I say that to you on that dayYou were not happy, I feel so ashamed
“Happy Veterans Day”, how dumb can I be ?
Why didn’t I just say what I wanted those words to be
That I was worried and scared and wanted you to live
That I wanted to see you to take you to eat
I wanted to talk to you and see you, help get you back on your feet.
We were supposed to grow old together you and I
I was to watch you have kids, and give advice,
and be by your side
We were to take care of Mom and Dad like siblings do
Share our memories, that our ours, create some that are new
You truly are my other half
If only I could just go back
To save you like I was supposed to do
That is what a big sister’s job is, and what I failed to do.
Your light shined so bright I see nothing but darkness now
I hope that you are okay and your eyes smile somehow
I can hardly wait 'til the day we can embrace
The day I can touch your beautiful face
I try to go on but it is so hard to do
My kids need me but so do you
The thing that is hard is that I am left here to stay
to pick up the pieces of that fateful day
People say that with time it will get better
How can it be, when death is so forever?
I mourn the past, the present and future with you
the baby, the boy, the teenager, the man
the what might have been's and could have been's
that will now never be.
The things that I took for granted
the time spent with you. Just you and me.
I am grateful for the time we had together
It was so short though; With you, time could have lasted forever
I miss our talks that lasted for hours
our pranks and jokes and laughing at the expense of others.
Nobody understands even though they try
the bond that we had, you and I
It’s okay though brother, for I know that you do
I will just have to wait again to see you
Fly away my cowboy, Fly away and be free
be happy and enjoy freedom the way it is supposed to be
I’ll love you forever and then some again
Thank you my Adam for being not just a brother but also my friend.
TO ADAM JOEL GARCIA GONZALESFROM YOUR SISTER VERONICA3/2/1985-11/11/2008
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
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It is official.. it's been a year since I heard your voice. It was the Saturday before you left us. I will remember it always. Soft and kind. Gentle like you. I hope I never forget what your voice and laugh sounds like. You were so angry that day.. I hadn't heard you that angry in years, if ever. I was able to make you laugh. I am glad we ended with 'I love you', 'Love you too'.
Monday, November 2, 2009
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