MERRY CHRISTMAS SWEET ADAM...
I'll never forget the Christmas Eve's and Christmases we spent together growing up. Treasured memories for sure.
HUGS!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Home Movies
Jose found our old camcorder, he hooked it up to the TV, we were watching a few. There was one that had my you Sweet Adam the Christmas before you left to Iraq. You were laughing your Adam laugh, and looking so very good as always.
On that same tape, it showed the day you left for Iraq. Your unit doing formation, then loading the busses. I HATE THAT DAY. I will hate that day until I die. I knew, I KNEW you would NEVER ever be the same once you got on that bus. I remember the day so clearly. I was not able to sleep at all the night before, I cried, prayed and begged the Lord for you that night. You left super early and we had to leave the house at 4:00 am. I remember it was FREEZING cold outside. I was in such a horrible state of mind, we couldn't find Tonio's shoes, so we ended up just taking him with no shoes, so we had to hold him the whole time. I remember when you got on that bus.. I fell to the ground sobbing and my heart broke like someone stabbed it. I saw you from the window with your little wave and saw the tears glisten in your eyes. Everyone said that I was making a huge deal out of it, and that I was so dramatic. I call bullshit, Look at the result now !! I KNEW.. I knew you would NEVER be the same....they took my baby brother away from me...I'll never get him back... I KNEW... I knew...
On that same tape, it showed the day you left for Iraq. Your unit doing formation, then loading the busses. I HATE THAT DAY. I will hate that day until I die. I knew, I KNEW you would NEVER ever be the same once you got on that bus. I remember the day so clearly. I was not able to sleep at all the night before, I cried, prayed and begged the Lord for you that night. You left super early and we had to leave the house at 4:00 am. I remember it was FREEZING cold outside. I was in such a horrible state of mind, we couldn't find Tonio's shoes, so we ended up just taking him with no shoes, so we had to hold him the whole time. I remember when you got on that bus.. I fell to the ground sobbing and my heart broke like someone stabbed it. I saw you from the window with your little wave and saw the tears glisten in your eyes. Everyone said that I was making a huge deal out of it, and that I was so dramatic. I call bullshit, Look at the result now !! I KNEW.. I knew you would NEVER be the same....they took my baby brother away from me...I'll never get him back... I KNEW... I knew...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Why then, man, are you so worthless in your own eyes and yet so precious to God? Why render yourself such dishonor when you are honored by him? Why do you ask how you were created and do not seek to know why you were made? Was not this entire visible universe made for your dwelling? It was for you that the light dispelled the overshadowing gloom; for your sake was the night regulated and the day measured, and for you were the heavens embellished with the varying brilliance of the sun, the moon and the stars.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Sweet Cowboy
It is so cold outside, so I am not visiting your grave as much. I still think of you each day for most of the day, but I wanted you to know something. I am slowly and I mean slowly climbing back up. I know you would be happy about this. I am living day to day and sometimes moment to moment. Things are just not the same without you though,there is such a void in our lives.
If you have any pull whatsoever mijo, Talk to God about Kylynn's baby okay?
If you have any pull whatsoever mijo, Talk to God about Kylynn's baby okay?
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Written for you sweet Adam upon the first year anniversary .. :(
A year has passed, I guess it’s realI just can’t help the way I feel.
My heart is gone, my soul is lost
My mind stays stuck back in the past.
It’s just that I never thought we would have to bury
My baby brother , my life, my friend so caring.
You chose Veteran’s Day to take your life
A plan well thought out, your wish to die
I’ll never forget that horrible day
engraved in my heart forever it will stay
A Happy Veteran’s day it will NEVER be
for you took our veteran away from me
Nor will any other holiday ever be the same
All they do is bring up more pain
Why did I say that to you on that dayYou were not happy, I feel so ashamed
“Happy Veterans Day”, how dumb can I be ?
Why didn’t I just say what I wanted those words to be
That I was worried and scared and wanted you to live
That I wanted to see you to take you to eat
I wanted to talk to you and see you, help get you back on your feet.
We were supposed to grow old together you and I
I was to watch you have kids, and give advice,
and be by your side
We were to take care of Mom and Dad like siblings do
Share our memories, that our ours, create some that are new
You truly are my other half
If only I could just go back
To save you like I was supposed to do
That is what a big sister’s job is, and what I failed to do.
Your light shined so bright I see nothing but darkness now
I hope that you are okay and your eyes smile somehow
I can hardly wait 'til the day we can embrace
The day I can touch your beautiful face
I try to go on but it is so hard to do
My kids need me but so do you
The thing that is hard is that I am left here to stay
to pick up the pieces of that fateful day
People say that with time it will get better
How can it be, when death is so forever?
I mourn the past, the present and future with you
the baby, the boy, the teenager, the man
the what might have been's and could have been's
that will now never be.
The things that I took for granted
the time spent with you. Just you and me.
I am grateful for the time we had together
It was so short though; With you, time could have lasted forever
I miss our talks that lasted for hours
our pranks and jokes and laughing at the expense of others.
Nobody understands even though they try
the bond that we had, you and I
It’s okay though brother, for I know that you do
I will just have to wait again to see you
Fly away my cowboy, Fly away and be free
be happy and enjoy freedom the way it is supposed to be
I’ll love you forever and then some again
Thank you my Adam for being not just a brother but also my friend.
TO ADAM JOEL GARCIA GONZALESFROM YOUR SISTER VERONICA3/2/1985-11/11/2008
My heart is gone, my soul is lost
My mind stays stuck back in the past.
It’s just that I never thought we would have to bury
My baby brother , my life, my friend so caring.
You chose Veteran’s Day to take your life
A plan well thought out, your wish to die
I’ll never forget that horrible day
engraved in my heart forever it will stay
A Happy Veteran’s day it will NEVER be
for you took our veteran away from me
Nor will any other holiday ever be the same
All they do is bring up more pain
Why did I say that to you on that dayYou were not happy, I feel so ashamed
“Happy Veterans Day”, how dumb can I be ?
Why didn’t I just say what I wanted those words to be
That I was worried and scared and wanted you to live
That I wanted to see you to take you to eat
I wanted to talk to you and see you, help get you back on your feet.
We were supposed to grow old together you and I
I was to watch you have kids, and give advice,
and be by your side
We were to take care of Mom and Dad like siblings do
Share our memories, that our ours, create some that are new
You truly are my other half
If only I could just go back
To save you like I was supposed to do
That is what a big sister’s job is, and what I failed to do.
Your light shined so bright I see nothing but darkness now
I hope that you are okay and your eyes smile somehow
I can hardly wait 'til the day we can embrace
The day I can touch your beautiful face
I try to go on but it is so hard to do
My kids need me but so do you
The thing that is hard is that I am left here to stay
to pick up the pieces of that fateful day
People say that with time it will get better
How can it be, when death is so forever?
I mourn the past, the present and future with you
the baby, the boy, the teenager, the man
the what might have been's and could have been's
that will now never be.
The things that I took for granted
the time spent with you. Just you and me.
I am grateful for the time we had together
It was so short though; With you, time could have lasted forever
I miss our talks that lasted for hours
our pranks and jokes and laughing at the expense of others.
Nobody understands even though they try
the bond that we had, you and I
It’s okay though brother, for I know that you do
I will just have to wait again to see you
Fly away my cowboy, Fly away and be free
be happy and enjoy freedom the way it is supposed to be
I’ll love you forever and then some again
Thank you my Adam for being not just a brother but also my friend.
TO ADAM JOEL GARCIA GONZALESFROM YOUR SISTER VERONICA3/2/1985-11/11/2008
Monday, November 9, 2009
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It is official.. it's been a year since I heard your voice. It was the Saturday before you left us. I will remember it always. Soft and kind. Gentle like you. I hope I never forget what your voice and laugh sounds like. You were so angry that day.. I hadn't heard you that angry in years, if ever. I was able to make you laugh. I am glad we ended with 'I love you', 'Love you too'.
Monday, November 2, 2009
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Friday, October 23, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Welcome
Thank you all for your extreme support and love this past year. Please use this blog as a memorial to our sweet Adam. I have set this up for his loved ones to share memories, thoughts, feelings, songs ect.
Hopefully this will bring healing to all who view it, but even moreso keep his memory ALIVE.
You all know how much I miss him, and how much I hurt. He is irreplacable, and words will never quite fit how I feel, but there have been some great poems and songs that I found.
Please post in any way you choose, this has no formalities, just sharing, and just us loving Adam.
Thanks.
Veronica
Hopefully this will bring healing to all who view it, but even moreso keep his memory ALIVE.
You all know how much I miss him, and how much I hurt. He is irreplacable, and words will never quite fit how I feel, but there have been some great poems and songs that I found.
Please post in any way you choose, this has no formalities, just sharing, and just us loving Adam.
Thanks.
Veronica
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