Home Movies

Jose found our old camcorder, he hooked it up to the TV, we were watching a few. There was one that had my you Sweet Adam the Christmas before you left to Iraq. You were laughing your Adam laugh, and looking so very good as always.
On that same tape, it showed the day you left for Iraq. Your unit doing formation, then loading the busses. I HATE THAT DAY. I will hate that day until I die. I knew, I KNEW you would NEVER ever be the same once you got on that bus. I remember the day so clearly. I was not able to sleep at all the night before, I cried, prayed and begged the Lord for you that night. You left super early and we had to leave the house at 4:00 am. I remember it was FREEZING cold outside. I was in such a horrible state of mind, we couldn't find Tonio's shoes, so we ended up just taking him with no shoes, so we had to hold him the whole time. I remember when you got on that bus.. I fell to the ground sobbing and my heart broke like someone stabbed it. I saw you from the window with your little wave and saw the tears glisten in your eyes. Everyone said that I was making a huge deal out of it, and that I was so dramatic. I call bullshit, Look at the result now !! I KNEW.. I knew you would NEVER be the same....they took my baby brother away from me...I'll never get him back... I KNEW... I knew...