MERRY CHRISTMAS SWEET ADAM...
I'll never forget the Christmas Eve's and Christmases we spent together growing up. Treasured memories for sure.
HUGS!

Home Movies

Jose found our old camcorder, he hooked it up to the TV, we were watching a few. There was one that had my you Sweet Adam the Christmas before you left to Iraq. You were laughing your Adam laugh, and looking so very good as always.
On that same tape, it showed the day you left for Iraq. Your unit doing formation, then loading the busses. I HATE THAT DAY. I will hate that day until I die. I knew, I KNEW you would NEVER ever be the same once you got on that bus. I remember the day so clearly. I was not able to sleep at all the night before, I cried, prayed and begged the Lord for you that night. You left super early and we had to leave the house at 4:00 am. I remember it was FREEZING cold outside. I was in such a horrible state of mind, we couldn't find Tonio's shoes, so we ended up just taking him with no shoes, so we had to hold him the whole time. I remember when you got on that bus.. I fell to the ground sobbing and my heart broke like someone stabbed it. I saw you from the window with your little wave and saw the tears glisten in your eyes. Everyone said that I was making a huge deal out of it, and that I was so dramatic. I call bullshit, Look at the result now !! I KNEW.. I knew you would NEVER be the same....they took my baby brother away from me...I'll never get him back... I KNEW... I knew...

Why then, man, are you so worthless in your own eyes and yet so precious to God? Why render yourself such dishonor when you are honored by him? Why do you ask how you were created and do not seek to know why you were made? Was not this entire visible universe made for your dwelling? It was for you that the light dispelled the overshadowing gloom; for your sake was the night regulated and the day measured, and for you were the heavens embellished with the varying brilliance of the sun, the moon and the stars.

Sweet Cowboy

It is so cold outside, so I am not visiting your grave as much. I still think of you each day for most of the day, but I wanted you to know something. I am slowly and I mean slowly climbing back up. I know you would be happy about this. I am living day to day and sometimes moment to moment. Things are just not the same without you though,there is such a void in our lives.
If you have any pull whatsoever mijo, Talk to God about Kylynn's baby okay?